For A Friend Named "J"

Have you ever had certain people in life that offered you to take a different road, but because say of other people you chose not to go down it? I know we all have at some point or another.

I thought about it today after seeing this old friend, lets call him "J". Him and I had gotten close when my now hubby was my then boyfriend had broke up. I loved hanging and talking with J, he was so unlike others I could really related to him. Still fresh off a break up, I didn't want to seem like some silly whore and just go for him no matter how much I had fancied him.

Well sadly for me, I ended up sharing this information with a girlfriend of mine, and after telling her his name. She had heard of him, and I'm guessing it wasn't good, because then I was told I shouldn't talk with him let alone date him, I felt like I should listen, since she was older and had been through more in her life than I. So I listened.

I can still remember the night he tired to kiss me after that, I felt so horrible. I wanted to but I replayed what my girlfriend had said to me and I made up some lame excuse. Leaving a good friendship in the dirt and didn't look back.

Now don't get me wrong, my life turned out for the best. I have an amazing man I love and I'm proud to call my husband and the most wonderful son. I don't think I would have had any of that if I didn't listen to my friend. And after seeing what has become of J and his happiness, I know I made the right choices.

Sometimes though after seeing someone that put you in one of those fork in the road moments you can't help but let your mind wander to what could have happened if I chose not to listen. Would things still be the same now, or would everything I've know to be my life these last 3 years be completely gone?

I'm guessing with what brought these feelings on, I still feel bad. I just shunned him. I was rude to someone who was kind and caring towards me. And I treated them like crap, but in the end I will get over it. You can't be nice to everyone and still get what you want now can you?